Today was equally depressing but more bearable being at work and all. It is amazing how easily I fit into any environment in which I work. I’ve hit the ground running in BVI, interacting with customers. People have even commented on how professional I am and how at ease I look with the customers I have dealt with. It was very busy today but welcomed as it takes my mind off the inevitable situation in which I find myself. Think I may just get drunk tonight … hhhmmmm, interesting thought.
Anyhoo, I am now in the “comfort” of my hotel room, watching one of my favourite Jim Carrey movies, Liar Liar. This movie is one of his most hilarious in my opinion and it got me thinking what it would be like for the world if we couldn’t lie. I mean, lying has become so commonplace in our society that it is as accepted as pre-marital sex now a days (yes, the last time I checked, having sex before marriage, aka fornication was still a sin).
We seem to lie about the simplest things. IMHO (Thanks Scratchie), I think that it is impossible to go through this life without lying. However, it should be the exception rather than the norm. For example, if one needs to lie to save a life or to spare the feelings of another, then I completely support lies under these conditions. Such as, in Liar Liar, Jim Carrey’s character Fletcher Reid explained to his son that when his mother was pregnant and had gained 40 lbs, she asked him how she looked and he told her that she was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen. In truth, he thought she looked like a cow but spared her feelings by telling her a lie about how beautiful she looked at that time. This I think is acceptable and any similar situation. Lying to save your life, say if you are being held up by a man at gun point, whatever it takes to save your life, I say do it. What I don’t appreciate or support is the casual liar who tells “white lies” as we call it. Lies for no good reason are despicable and should be avoided at all costs. Like lying to cover up a wrong we did or to get someone else in trouble or to make ourselves look good to others … Contemptible. It is said that once you start to lie, you can’t stop because you lie then tell another lie to cover up the 1st lie and before you know it, you are so caught up in the lie that it either catches up on you or you actually start to believe it to be the truth and a reality.
Now, I lie too just like the average person. However, I try to live my life in such a way that I do not need to do it more than is absolutely necessary.
I deserve a pat on the back … don’t I??
Monday, November 15, 2004
Saturday, November 13, 2004
DAY 3 OF TORTURE
After I stopped feeling sorry for myself (sort of) and decided that I might as well try to overcome this depression that I feel coming over me like a fog in the night, I took a shower, got dressed and decided to go on an exploration of this island of Tortola. For those who may not know, BVI is a group of over 50 islands, the main of these being Tortola and Virgin Gorda. A friend of mine said to me when I was leaving that when I return to Jamaica, I should either be British or a Virgin …. I know which one I won’t be …
Anyway, I put my clothes on and stepped out into the unknown. I walked to the end of the road, looked left, looked right and decided to go left. I found myself on the Marina which is a part of the crap of a hotel I’m staying (more on this later) and I walked on the dock, admiring the yachts and saying that I will own one of these things before I die. Then, I saw a semblance of a mall to the left of the Marina so I ventured in that direction. Nothing … Insurance Companies and 1 souvenir/gift shop! What kind of a mall is that???? The souvenir shop … just like every other in the Caribbean (almost), nothing worth even looking at. As I stepped out of this establishment, I now ventured right and then ……………………
It starts to rain! Fuck!! I finally decide that I might as well find something better to do than stay in the hotel room, sleep, watch TV, eat, shit, whatever … and the fucking rain!!
I’m so pissed. It rained, and rained, and rained, I had to walk back to the hotel in the rain! And then ….
Sneezing, sneezing, sneezing. I hope to God I don’t get sick. That I can’t deal with for sure.
What next????
Anyway, I put my clothes on and stepped out into the unknown. I walked to the end of the road, looked left, looked right and decided to go left. I found myself on the Marina which is a part of the crap of a hotel I’m staying (more on this later) and I walked on the dock, admiring the yachts and saying that I will own one of these things before I die. Then, I saw a semblance of a mall to the left of the Marina so I ventured in that direction. Nothing … Insurance Companies and 1 souvenir/gift shop! What kind of a mall is that???? The souvenir shop … just like every other in the Caribbean (almost), nothing worth even looking at. As I stepped out of this establishment, I now ventured right and then ……………………
It starts to rain! Fuck!! I finally decide that I might as well find something better to do than stay in the hotel room, sleep, watch TV, eat, shit, whatever … and the fucking rain!!
I’m so pissed. It rained, and rained, and rained, I had to walk back to the hotel in the rain! And then ….
Sneezing, sneezing, sneezing. I hope to God I don’t get sick. That I can’t deal with for sure.
What next????
Friday, November 12, 2004
Extreme Torture
I arrived in the British Virgin Islands last night after a 4 hour delay in Antigua. Talk about tired ... that was me. In addition to this, I was not able to communicate with my significant other for this time. I hate being away from home and away from him so that is the source of my extreme sadness and torture!
I will be away for 4 weeks on behalf of my company. I travel quite often on behalf of my company usually anywhere between 3 days and 2 weeks. This is the first time I'm asked to be away for 4 weeks minimum ... and from the looks of things ... I'd better start singing Christmas Carols!
I'm totally devastated. The thought of being away from the comforts of home and the security of my baby's arms, is not one that is welcomed at all. The travel has its benefits in that it pays more for me to be here and I get a chance to be seen and heard within my company. I've done that already, hence my selection out of a region of 15 countries to go to various islands to work in one capacity or another. This trip is to provide relief and training to a new recruit into my line of work.
Nonetheless, I'm saddened by the distance. It is said it makes the heart grow fonder and the other wander .... I'm hoping that in my case it is the former. In addition, it costs US$2.00 to call home and I'm pretty sure I must have done all my money on phone calls already which is quite tragic. It's difficult and quite challenging to make the transition from being able to pick up the phone and call your partner at anytime of the day for anything, big or small, just to say Hi or I love you or to make sure they are ok. It is hard for me, very, very hard.
I'll continue to make desperate attempts to not get depressed. BVI is not a happening island, there's not much to do here and the cable at my hotel sucks big time. I however have 2 novels I took with me so at least I have that and my laptop!
Keep me company guys. I have to make an empassioned plea for you all (except Steverino) to post regularly to your blogs so that I may not die of boredom ... PLEASE ... I BEG OF YOU!!!
I will be away for 4 weeks on behalf of my company. I travel quite often on behalf of my company usually anywhere between 3 days and 2 weeks. This is the first time I'm asked to be away for 4 weeks minimum ... and from the looks of things ... I'd better start singing Christmas Carols!
I'm totally devastated. The thought of being away from the comforts of home and the security of my baby's arms, is not one that is welcomed at all. The travel has its benefits in that it pays more for me to be here and I get a chance to be seen and heard within my company. I've done that already, hence my selection out of a region of 15 countries to go to various islands to work in one capacity or another. This trip is to provide relief and training to a new recruit into my line of work.
Nonetheless, I'm saddened by the distance. It is said it makes the heart grow fonder and the other wander .... I'm hoping that in my case it is the former. In addition, it costs US$2.00 to call home and I'm pretty sure I must have done all my money on phone calls already which is quite tragic. It's difficult and quite challenging to make the transition from being able to pick up the phone and call your partner at anytime of the day for anything, big or small, just to say Hi or I love you or to make sure they are ok. It is hard for me, very, very hard.
I'll continue to make desperate attempts to not get depressed. BVI is not a happening island, there's not much to do here and the cable at my hotel sucks big time. I however have 2 novels I took with me so at least I have that and my laptop!
Keep me company guys. I have to make an empassioned plea for you all (except Steverino) to post regularly to your blogs so that I may not die of boredom ... PLEASE ... I BEG OF YOU!!!
Thursday, November 11, 2004
Monday, November 08, 2004
"Know From Afar" - What an Honour!!
Who knew that when I started this blog in June, that I would still be at it in November? Not even I knew and it demonstrates my theme, "Patience Is A Virtue". Also, when I started, didn't think that more than 2 people would actually view my rantings, ramblings and ravings about the world, my life, etc.
Now, I'm on the "Know From Afar" listing on Peter M.'s blog and I feel honoured. Am I being silly? It's just a blog for crying out loud! Well, it's a big deal to me since I viewed this blog initially as just a new phase that would eventually pass when I got bored. That day hasn't come yet, and until it does, I'll be around.
So, this blog goes out to Peter. Thanks for reading and for finding my comments and my blog worthy of being added to your "Know From Afar" list!!
Kudos.
Now, I'm on the "Know From Afar" listing on Peter M.'s blog and I feel honoured. Am I being silly? It's just a blog for crying out loud! Well, it's a big deal to me since I viewed this blog initially as just a new phase that would eventually pass when I got bored. That day hasn't come yet, and until it does, I'll be around.
So, this blog goes out to Peter. Thanks for reading and for finding my comments and my blog worthy of being added to your "Know From Afar" list!!
Kudos.
Sunday, November 07, 2004
Passion Unleashed
Wanting, Needing
Feeling, Groping
Breathing, Moaning
Passion unleashed
Touching, kissing
Beating hearts
Licking lips
Holding Hands
Smiling, Winking
Passion Unleashed
A simple touch
A light caress
Electrifying
Whether with hands,
Fingers or tongue
Imminent arousal
Passion building
No time to wait
Release in inevitable
Can't Hardly Wait
For us to both feel
The depth of my love
And my Passion unleashed.
-NLJ-
Feeling, Groping
Breathing, Moaning
Passion unleashed
Touching, kissing
Beating hearts
Licking lips
Holding Hands
Smiling, Winking
Passion Unleashed
A simple touch
A light caress
Electrifying
Whether with hands,
Fingers or tongue
Imminent arousal
Passion building
No time to wait
Release in inevitable
Can't Hardly Wait
For us to both feel
The depth of my love
And my Passion unleashed.
-NLJ-
Saturday, November 06, 2004
102 Things About Me
I had to give in to this one. So many blogs I’ve checked out in recent times has this list: “100 Things About Me”… first seen on Peter M.’s blog.
In an attempt to be different, below is my list: “102 Things About Me”
1. I’m an only child
2. I’m not a typical only child
3. My father told me that he wanted 7 children … before he had me!
4. I was the youngest person in my graduating class in High School
5. I was born in St. Andrew, Jamaica at 5:15 a.m. on May 14
6. My first sexual encounter occurred when I was 6 years old
7. This encounter was with an 8 year old boy
8. He didn’t know what sex was.
9. I think I have a split personality
10. I once got drunk on purpose
11. My best friend had to persuade me not to take my top off in the club
12. I was very very happy that night.
13. The first Cassette I ever bought was Tiffany’s debut album.
14. I have a passion for Music
15. I’m a sitcom junkie
16. My favourite comedy of all time is Seinfeld
17. People think my father and I are brother and sister because of the way we interact
18. If I had my choice of X-Men characters, I would be Mystique
19. Think I would call my daughter Mystique … (scary)
20. I want to have 6 children
21. I have none yet
22. I think Masters Degrees are over-rated
23. My favourite singer is Madonna
24. Both my parents are teachers
25. I work in Banking
26. I once had a pet cat named Princess
27. She got run down on the street where I live
28. A cat once crawled through my window and pounced on my back
29. I thought it was my father playing with me
30. I freaked out when I put my hand behind me and felt fur
31. I find the sea relaxing
32. I have a fear of drowning
33. I have an unnatural fear of cockroaches
34. I have a very high sex drive
35. If it were possible, I would have sex every day
36. Hhhhhhmmm, I think I need to make it possible!
37. I have an obsession with Thong panties
38. Someone once bought me “Anne Hooper’s Ultimate Sex Guide: A Sex Therapist’s Personalized Program For Enriching Your Sex Life”
39. A pack of Erotica condoms accompanied this gift
40. I would like to go on a European Cruise before I die
41. People constantly tell me I have a beautiful smile
42. I’m obsessed with brushing my teeth
43. My favourite toothpaste is Listerine Gel
44. I once wanted to be a Stand Up comedian
45. I once wanted to be a stripper
46. See #25
47. I hate teddy bears
48. My favourite alcoholic drink is Rum Cream
49. I’ve always wanted a baby sister
50. I’m in Love
51. I absolutely love astronomy
52. I don’t believe in aliens
53. I think Psychics are fake
54. I almost won the lottery once
55. Like to dance
56. I’m a wonderful person to have as a friend
57. I don’t like hypocrites
58. I think people take advantage of me sometimes
59. I think I’m capable of committing murder
60. And not get caught
61. I’ve never been called for Jury Duty
62. Hope that when I do it’s for a rape case
63. I believe in Capital punishment … (ooops, hope I didn’t make enemies here)
64. My cell phone currently rings “We Wish You a Merry X-Mas"
65. It's been on that since October 1
66. Christmas is my least favourite holiday of the year
67. I have a Nokia cell phone
68. Nokia is my name rearranged
69. I love word games
70. My boyfriend constantly wins at Scrabble
71. He doesn’t know that I let him win
72. I’m smart
73. People think I’m very mature and wise for my age
74. People have thought this since I was 10
75. My dentist told me when I was 9 that I have the teeth of a 12 year old
76. I have kept a journal since 1989
77. I used to write poetry
78. I write less poetry now
79. I have hopes of being a Rock/Pop star someday
80. I came 2nd in a Singing Contest
81. I am someone you can count on, loyal, dependable and honest
82. I’ve shoplifted
83. And got caught
84. “I’m not a crook”
85. My favourite fragrance is Narcisse Chloe.
86. This fragrance aggravates the sinuses of 3 of my coworkers
87. I don’t wear Narcisse Chloe to work anymore
88. I enjoy being in Love. It’s Wonderful
89. I might elope instead of having a wedding
90. If I do have a wedding, I will only have 50 people in attendance (being very optimistic here)
91. Pleasure on all levels turns me on ... whoa!!
92. Sometimes I think I’m a masochist
93. I have calendars on my wall as far back as 1998
94. I make markings on my calendars for special days
95. I have dandruff
96. My favourite colour is purple, blue is a close 2nd
97. I once tried to practice telekinesis
98. Think that’s when I developed a Migraine
99. My mother used to think I faked headaches to escape chores
100. She sucks
101. I type 120 words per minute
102. To know me is to love me … honestly… I’m great!
In an attempt to be different, below is my list: “102 Things About Me”
1. I’m an only child
2. I’m not a typical only child
3. My father told me that he wanted 7 children … before he had me!
4. I was the youngest person in my graduating class in High School
5. I was born in St. Andrew, Jamaica at 5:15 a.m. on May 14
6. My first sexual encounter occurred when I was 6 years old
7. This encounter was with an 8 year old boy
8. He didn’t know what sex was.
9. I think I have a split personality
10. I once got drunk on purpose
11. My best friend had to persuade me not to take my top off in the club
12. I was very very happy that night.
13. The first Cassette I ever bought was Tiffany’s debut album.
14. I have a passion for Music
15. I’m a sitcom junkie
16. My favourite comedy of all time is Seinfeld
17. People think my father and I are brother and sister because of the way we interact
18. If I had my choice of X-Men characters, I would be Mystique
19. Think I would call my daughter Mystique … (scary)
20. I want to have 6 children
21. I have none yet
22. I think Masters Degrees are over-rated
23. My favourite singer is Madonna
24. Both my parents are teachers
25. I work in Banking
26. I once had a pet cat named Princess
27. She got run down on the street where I live
28. A cat once crawled through my window and pounced on my back
29. I thought it was my father playing with me
30. I freaked out when I put my hand behind me and felt fur
31. I find the sea relaxing
32. I have a fear of drowning
33. I have an unnatural fear of cockroaches
34. I have a very high sex drive
35. If it were possible, I would have sex every day
36. Hhhhhhmmm, I think I need to make it possible!
37. I have an obsession with Thong panties
38. Someone once bought me “Anne Hooper’s Ultimate Sex Guide: A Sex Therapist’s Personalized Program For Enriching Your Sex Life”
39. A pack of Erotica condoms accompanied this gift
40. I would like to go on a European Cruise before I die
41. People constantly tell me I have a beautiful smile
42. I’m obsessed with brushing my teeth
43. My favourite toothpaste is Listerine Gel
44. I once wanted to be a Stand Up comedian
45. I once wanted to be a stripper
46. See #25
47. I hate teddy bears
48. My favourite alcoholic drink is Rum Cream
49. I’ve always wanted a baby sister
50. I’m in Love
51. I absolutely love astronomy
52. I don’t believe in aliens
53. I think Psychics are fake
54. I almost won the lottery once
55. Like to dance
56. I’m a wonderful person to have as a friend
57. I don’t like hypocrites
58. I think people take advantage of me sometimes
59. I think I’m capable of committing murder
60. And not get caught
61. I’ve never been called for Jury Duty
62. Hope that when I do it’s for a rape case
63. I believe in Capital punishment … (ooops, hope I didn’t make enemies here)
64. My cell phone currently rings “We Wish You a Merry X-Mas"
65. It's been on that since October 1
66. Christmas is my least favourite holiday of the year
67. I have a Nokia cell phone
68. Nokia is my name rearranged
69. I love word games
70. My boyfriend constantly wins at Scrabble
71. He doesn’t know that I let him win
72. I’m smart
73. People think I’m very mature and wise for my age
74. People have thought this since I was 10
75. My dentist told me when I was 9 that I have the teeth of a 12 year old
76. I have kept a journal since 1989
77. I used to write poetry
78. I write less poetry now
79. I have hopes of being a Rock/Pop star someday
80. I came 2nd in a Singing Contest
81. I am someone you can count on, loyal, dependable and honest
82. I’ve shoplifted
83. And got caught
84. “I’m not a crook”
85. My favourite fragrance is Narcisse Chloe.
86. This fragrance aggravates the sinuses of 3 of my coworkers
87. I don’t wear Narcisse Chloe to work anymore
88. I enjoy being in Love. It’s Wonderful
89. I might elope instead of having a wedding
90. If I do have a wedding, I will only have 50 people in attendance (being very optimistic here)
91. Pleasure on all levels turns me on ... whoa!!
92. Sometimes I think I’m a masochist
93. I have calendars on my wall as far back as 1998
94. I make markings on my calendars for special days
95. I have dandruff
96. My favourite colour is purple, blue is a close 2nd
97. I once tried to practice telekinesis
98. Think that’s when I developed a Migraine
99. My mother used to think I faked headaches to escape chores
100. She sucks
101. I type 120 words per minute
102. To know me is to love me … honestly… I’m great!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
