Fun Stuff

It's full time I stop stealing things from blogs but some of the things I come across are just so fun!! Thanks Amanda for this little tidbit!!

Choose a musical artist/band and answer only in their song titles: MADONNA

Are you male or female? CANDY PERFUME GIRL
Describe yourself: AMAZING
How do some people feel about you? RAY OF LIGHT
How do you feel about yourself? LUCKY STAR
Describe your ex-boyfriend/ex-husband: BYE BYE BABY
Describe your current boyfriend/husband: INSIDE OF ME/CRAZY FOR YOU
Describe what you want to be: DEEPER AND DEEPER
Describe your current mood: HOLIDAY
Describe your friends: VOGUE
Share a few words of wisdom: LOVE MAKES THE WORLD GO ROUND

Nothing to Do But Play

Well, today was the first of my 3 weeks vacation and I can't believe that I'm actually gonna say this but .... I missed the office today!!!

I called the office today and my co-worker actually said, "Hold on let me get a pen and paper cause I know you are calling me with some instructions."

I said, "Actually no, I was just checking if you are ok" ... to which she said she was.

I didn't have much to do today at all and spent the day exercising, sleeping, working on a personal project, went to the hair dresser ... (Yeah, I'm looking kinda hot today!) ... :-), and watching TV. Is that pathetic or what? I have all this time on my hands and nothing to do. I will have to do something about this pronto. I think I'll go and get an aromatherapy massage! That should do me some good!!!

A Mother's Love Pt. 2

Last October, I posted Pt. 1 of this blog.

Last night after an explosive argument between myself and the maternal parental unit, it has prompted part 2. She needed a serious reality check which I gave her last night. Now, don't get me wrong, I didn't disrespect her in any way. I simply made my point in the calmest and most civil way I could despite the extreme to which she pissed me off. Even after I said what I had to say and proceeded to ignore her, she continue to rants and raves about whatever was peeving her at that moment.

For those who think that there can be some sort of reconciliation between me and her, will need to say extra prayers because despite the fact that she is my mother, that is going to be very difficult for me to do. I have endured many years of judgment, lies, deceit, insensitivity, hypocrisy blah blah blah ... I have really had enough of it.

My mother is one of those persons who has the "Something is wrong with everyone else" syndrome and clearly does no sort of introspection to see if maybe, just maybe, something is wrong with her. If she can't see that, then I am through trying to get her to see the error of her ways. I am not a perfect daughter and I'm sure this must be a disappointment to her seeing that there are no other siblings to redeem her dream of whatever it is she had for me. However, I am an individual and I will not try to live the life that she has envisioned for me. It's too late to be the doctor or lawyer or whatever it is she wanted me to be. It is very sad that she can't be happy for me when I'm so happy (except for those times when she pushes me over the edge). There are so many things that has happened with her that I've tried to look past ... but she always manages to do something to take me right back to where I was when there was nothing but hostility inside me for her.

I know this sounds very sad and I've thought about this so many times. Am I a bad person for feeling this way about her? This is now past teenage rebellion where you thought your mother was the worst person in the world. These are real issues that I have been able to put into perspective as an adult. I really don't want it to be that one of us is no longer here and we have to live with the fact that we didn't have a relationship. I hope ... still hope .... that there is a reconciliation somewhere in the future before it is too late.

And .... in honour of the paternal parental unit, I will have to do a blog about my father ... can't believe this was never done given the wonder of our interaction!!

This had me laughing my ass off! Words of Wisdom from Droopy. 

Getting Down & Dirty

Well, I'm free for the next 3 weeks on much needed vacation from my ever stressful job! I normally do a lot of administrative stuff when I'm on vacation but this time around is all about me ... having fun, being naughty , getting down and dirty (and resting if time allows). Hopefully, I won't need a vacation from my vacation when it's time to go back to work.

Since I might be so busy being naughty, I can't promise that I will be able to blog as much for the next 3 weeks. If anything exciting happens though that is blog worthy, I'll definitely share with y'all!!

I was totally surprised to get a gift for Valentine's Day from my love. It was so unexpected but it placed a smile on my face that is still there as I write this post. The candles are from last year's Valentine's Gift (which was also a big surprise) ... so to preserve the moments, I have taken this pic among others. 

Serenity, Peace and Tranquility. 

Hustling ... Valentines Roun' Di Corner

Is it just me or has anyone noticed that there has been an abundance of police on the road having spot checks and speed traps ... I was wondering what could have caused this increase in their visibility at this time of the month and then it dawned on me ....

Valentine's Day is a mere 2 days away and they need to hustle some $$$ to by the girlfriend (s) a Valentine gift. Yu neva si smoke without Fiya!!

More Time.

Ethics

I was a victim of Insomnia last night and watched night time TV until not too long ago. In the wee hours of the morning, the cable waves are bombarded with Infomercials, people trying to sell some crap that only white people buy. Anyway, I came across this infomercial with the author of a book entitled "Natural Cures They Don't Want You To Know About". What the doctor author, Kevin Trudeau was basically saying is that there are things in nature that can cure every single ailment, from Cancer to Herpes to Diabetes to Depression... you name it, there is supposedly a cure in this book.

It got me to thinking about the sick world in which we live where the Hippocratic Oath is now called the Hypocritic Oath by persons in the medical profession. It may not be so much in Jamaica but certainly in North America where there is a doctor for every single thing, it is very prevalent there. Looking at it, you could say that if we don't get sick, then doctors will be out of work so they only treat us to the point where we can live without the discomfort of whatever our condition is for a certain period of time, at which point, we will have to pay them another visit. With the cost of health care as expensive as it is, what this might lead to is persons not visiting the doctor as often as they should.

Could it be possible that there is a cure out there for every disease, every condition known to man, that is being held in a maximum security facility in an effort to enhance the riches of the medical profession? I'm sure I'm not the first or last person to think about this.

Personally, I believe that almost every ail we have is caused by the food or combinations we eat along with pollutants in the air. Equally, I am wont to support the Doctor's theory that for all the ailments he mentioned, there is a natural counter that will cure them.

If there are persons in the medical profession who view the Hippocratic Oath as a hypocricy in the practice of modern medicine, then we are in for many many more years of suffering. I can only hope that there is still a moral conscience in everyone that will force them to act ethically and not just think about the riches to be gained from continuing the suffering of others.

Ward 21

This past weekend, I had a most traumatic experience with a friend of mine from College. He is mentally unstable after a series of unfortunate events (like Lemony Snicket). After having his heart broken by a girl he was totally in love with, he attempted to commit suicide by jumping off a building. He didn't die but severely damaged his cranium which apparently didn't heal properly, thus contributing to his dillusional state of mind. Shortly after this experience, he became a Christian ... a fanatical one though. We all continued to try to be his friend however, he has not gotten to the point of complete dillusion, denial and erratic behaviour. He refuses to go to the hospital, refuses to take his medication and is behaving in a manner that has me very concerned for his life and his mother's. I personally believe that his mother has contributed somewhat to the deterioration of his condition and I wonder how can a mother sit by and watch her own flesh and blood become helpless, almost a non-entity. I also managed to make contact with some other mutual friends who said that they hadn't spoken to him in over 3 months because his conversations were incoherent and he just refused to admit or accept that he had a problem. I truly would like to offer some help but am not willing to put my life and the people I love in danger. I had to block his number from calling me as he was calling me every 5 minutes and at odd hours in the morning, saying things I just didn't understand and didn't know how to respond to.

Does anyone have any advice to offer??? I want to help at least at a distance.

Commit-MEN-to-PHOBIA

With Valentine's Day fast approaching (yes guys ... it is a mere 13 days away-for those of you who have significant others who will put you out in the dog house if gifts, flowers, chocolates, etc are not forthcoming on that day), there have been many articles in the local tabloids about the perfect way to tell your darling you love them, how to propose to the love of your life among other things. What caught my attention yesterday was an article in the Flair Magazine from the Gleaner that sought to provide clarity on the reason men are so afraid to commit to a woman via marriage.

Before I get into the meat of the article, I would like to say that I place no emphasis on Valentines Day simply because I do not believe that I have to wait on a specific day, represented by a cherub in a nappy (supposedly gay according to the history of this day) to show my man how much I love him. I have so much love inside me to give, that if I don't give a little every day, I just feel as if I'm going to burst. I do not expect gifts on this day, although I do get, but they are not the source of an argument, push up mouth, or anything of that nature. I know many women who are looking out for the gift basket to arrive at the office on that fateful Monday morning of February 14 ... I can't wait for the day to come to hear all the bad mind comments that will be dropping in the office about whose basket looks better than whose, and whose had it orchids as opposed to 12 long stem red roses, teddy bears, chocolates, scented candles ... hhhhmmm ... and the like. Interesting day for a laugh if you ask me!!

But I digress. The article ... I could not believe some of the lame ass excuses these men came up with as to why they would not marry. One gentleman went as far as to say that he will get married when he's 72! I'm sure no one but a granny would want him at that age but to each his own. Now to the age old question ... why are men so afraid to commit? Is it that women are viewed in such a negative light these days that men are more willing to spend the rest of their lives playing the field or living alone? From the way things are, most will opt for the former in an attempt to prove their manhood to their peers, that he is a "gyiallis" ... (people still use that word????, Forgive me, I'm so out of it sometimes). I seem to be writing many he said, she said blogs these days but I speak on what I observe in every day life. The article also spoke of other reasons for the "commitmentophobia" as I've decided to call it - these include, the increase in the display of jealousy in women, women trying to control what their men do, where they go, who they talk to and vice versa, etc. Do women really think that they mean themselves any good by displaying this type of immature behaviour to the man they have committed their life to? I can never understand the rationale behind some of the things that women do these days.

I understand the man's point of view but surely there are women out there who live up to what it means to be a good wife - one that respects her man to the max (and this must be reciprocated gentlemen, don't think you get off the hook for this), supports him, encourages him, loves him and makes him feel loved and like a man. Is it so hard? Men should also look into the changes they display - thinking that they now have a live in helper with all the perks of a maid and getting laid - which in turn make some women opposed to the idea of "submitting" themself to a man in marriage.

Maybe when I get married, I will either understand exactly what they were talking about or prove all their theories wrong. I'm aiming for the latter!!

Bed time for me now ...