Well, today was the first of my 3 weeks vacation and I can't believe that I'm actually gonna say this but .... I missed the office today!!!
I called the office today and my co-worker actually said, "Hold on let me get a pen and paper cause I know you are calling me with some instructions."
I said, "Actually no, I was just checking if you are ok" ... to which she said she was.
I didn't have much to do today at all and spent the day exercising, sleeping, working on a personal project, went to the hair dresser ... (Yeah, I'm looking kinda hot today!) ... :-), and watching TV. Is that pathetic or what? I have all this time on my hands and nothing to do. I will have to do something about this pronto. I think I'll go and get an aromatherapy massage! That should do me some good!!!
Monday, February 21, 2005
Sunday, February 20, 2005
A Mother's Love Pt. 2
Last October, I posted Pt. 1 of this blog.
Last night after an explosive argument between myself and the maternal parental unit, it has prompted part 2. She needed a serious reality check which I gave her last night. Now, don't get me wrong, I didn't disrespect her in any way. I simply made my point in the calmest and most civil way I could despite the extreme to which she pissed me off. Even after I said what I had to say and proceeded to ignore her, she continue to rants and raves about whatever was peeving her at that moment.
For those who think that there can be some sort of reconciliation between me and her, will need to say extra prayers because despite the fact that she is my mother, that is going to be very difficult for me to do. I have endured many years of judgment, lies, deceit, insensitivity, hypocrisy blah blah blah ... I have really had enough of it.
My mother is one of those persons who has the "Something is wrong with everyone else" syndrome and clearly does no sort of introspection to see if maybe, just maybe, something is wrong with her. If she can't see that, then I am through trying to get her to see the error of her ways. I am not a perfect daughter and I'm sure this must be a disappointment to her seeing that there are no other siblings to redeem her dream of whatever it is she had for me. However, I am an individual and I will not try to live the life that she has envisioned for me. It's too late to be the doctor or lawyer or whatever it is she wanted me to be. It is very sad that she can't be happy for me when I'm so happy (except for those times when she pushes me over the edge). There are so many things that has happened with her that I've tried to look past ... but she always manages to do something to take me right back to where I was when there was nothing but hostility inside me for her.
I know this sounds very sad and I've thought about this so many times. Am I a bad person for feeling this way about her? This is now past teenage rebellion where you thought your mother was the worst person in the world. These are real issues that I have been able to put into perspective as an adult. I really don't want it to be that one of us is no longer here and we have to live with the fact that we didn't have a relationship. I hope ... still hope .... that there is a reconciliation somewhere in the future before it is too late.
And .... in honour of the paternal parental unit, I will have to do a blog about my father ... can't believe this was never done given the wonder of our interaction!!
Last night after an explosive argument between myself and the maternal parental unit, it has prompted part 2. She needed a serious reality check which I gave her last night. Now, don't get me wrong, I didn't disrespect her in any way. I simply made my point in the calmest and most civil way I could despite the extreme to which she pissed me off. Even after I said what I had to say and proceeded to ignore her, she continue to rants and raves about whatever was peeving her at that moment.
For those who think that there can be some sort of reconciliation between me and her, will need to say extra prayers because despite the fact that she is my mother, that is going to be very difficult for me to do. I have endured many years of judgment, lies, deceit, insensitivity, hypocrisy blah blah blah ... I have really had enough of it.
My mother is one of those persons who has the "Something is wrong with everyone else" syndrome and clearly does no sort of introspection to see if maybe, just maybe, something is wrong with her. If she can't see that, then I am through trying to get her to see the error of her ways. I am not a perfect daughter and I'm sure this must be a disappointment to her seeing that there are no other siblings to redeem her dream of whatever it is she had for me. However, I am an individual and I will not try to live the life that she has envisioned for me. It's too late to be the doctor or lawyer or whatever it is she wanted me to be. It is very sad that she can't be happy for me when I'm so happy (except for those times when she pushes me over the edge). There are so many things that has happened with her that I've tried to look past ... but she always manages to do something to take me right back to where I was when there was nothing but hostility inside me for her.
I know this sounds very sad and I've thought about this so many times. Am I a bad person for feeling this way about her? This is now past teenage rebellion where you thought your mother was the worst person in the world. These are real issues that I have been able to put into perspective as an adult. I really don't want it to be that one of us is no longer here and we have to live with the fact that we didn't have a relationship. I hope ... still hope .... that there is a reconciliation somewhere in the future before it is too late.
And .... in honour of the paternal parental unit, I will have to do a blog about my father ... can't believe this was never done given the wonder of our interaction!!
Saturday, February 19, 2005
Getting Down & Dirty
Well, I'm free for the next 3 weeks on much needed vacation from my ever stressful job! I normally do a lot of administrative stuff when I'm on vacation but this time around is all about me ... having fun, being naughty , getting down and dirty (and resting if time allows). Hopefully, I won't need a vacation from my vacation when it's time to go back to work.
Since I might be so busy being naughty, I can't promise that I will be able to blog as much for the next 3 weeks. If anything exciting happens though that is blog worthy, I'll definitely share with y'all!!
Since I might be so busy being naughty, I can't promise that I will be able to blog as much for the next 3 weeks. If anything exciting happens though that is blog worthy, I'll definitely share with y'all!!
Monday, February 14, 2005
I was totally surprised to get a gift for Valentine's Day from my love. It was so unexpected but it placed a smile on my face that is still there as I write this post. The candles are from last year's Valentine's Gift (which was also a big surprise) ... so to preserve the moments, I have taken this pic among others.
Saturday, February 12, 2005
Hustling ... Valentines Roun' Di Corner
Is it just me or has anyone noticed that there has been an abundance of police on the road having spot checks and speed traps ... I was wondering what could have caused this increase in their visibility at this time of the month and then it dawned on me ....
Valentine's Day is a mere 2 days away and they need to hustle some $$$ to by the girlfriend (s) a Valentine gift. Yu neva si smoke without Fiya!!
More Time.
Valentine's Day is a mere 2 days away and they need to hustle some $$$ to by the girlfriend (s) a Valentine gift. Yu neva si smoke without Fiya!!
More Time.
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